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Tuesday, 11 June 2013 17:27

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It was December 5th, 2012 and my fiance and I were headed out of town.  Not 15 minutes into it, I felt like I was going to be sick and had to pull over so he could drive.  It was an instant feeling that I assumed was just a bug or something that was going around.  For a few weeks I felt this way and immediately thought I was pregnant and that would explain the nerves and sickness, so finally talked to Peyton (my fiance) and we took a test - negative.  But then what was making me feel sick?!

December 26th - Doctor's office.  She says I am not depressed and that it is anxiety, but there are medications that can help...Lexapro, an anti-depressant that would take about 6 weeks to get into my system.  I have never taken a medication other than birth control and never wanted to, but this had to stop.  It seems to help, but I've had some life changes that are taking a toll still.

We've been trying to plan a destination wedding, ok fine...12/16/2013 lost my job after purchasing a new car, ok fine...2/4/2013 got a new job, ok fine...11/1/2013, getting on a plane to Mexico in 5 months, not fine (getting on a flying capsule with a bunch of other people scares the daylights out of me).  Less than a year ago I was in Vegas and had no anxiety!  What the hell is my brain doing to me?!

Today:  June 11, 2013 - Made my first therapy appointment EVER!  I have to say, I am excited at the thought of talking to someone who can help me get over this and be able to walk on that plane and get married with confidence.  I don't talk about it much with Peyton because I don't think he understands how debilitating it is.  If we go out to eat or see friends, I am in panic mode until I can get my hands on an alcoholic beverage.  It helps of course because it numbs, but that doesn't mean I enjoy that part.  I don't drink much, therefore, I don't go out much. 

I don't want to be on medication, Peyton doesn't want me on medication.  It's hard because I know it helps, but I refuse to let this FEELING control my life and be on medication forever.  If it's just a feeling, then I can change it, right? 

I'll let you know how therapy went...I'm even anxious about that!

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  • Comment Link Greeneggsandham Monday, 11 August 2014 22:17 posted by Greeneggsandham

    How are u feeling now? Are u feeling more mindful? Present living?? Tell me please!! Im dealing with this myself... All the best!

  • Comment Link turboks Tuesday, 11 March 2014 20:09 posted by turboks

    Wow, it looks like although we are all different people from all parts of the world we all have very similar issues and patterns! I know I am 6 months behind replying, but this blog entry really spoke to me as I share so many of these points! I really hope you are a lot improved since when you wrote this!

  • Comment Link anxietyfreak40 Thursday, 17 October 2013 16:18 posted by anxietyfreak40

    It's funny when you start reading about other people's experiences how similar many of us are. I actually kept arguing that I just had the flu. Ten years later I have learned to control it a lot but there are still triggers that send me off the edge. Today, for instance, I guess it is more the not knowing if it is just anxiety or I am really getting sick. It seems to be fading so I guess it will end up being just another anxiety attack. How can we all be so similar and still feel all alone?

  • Comment Link Grnewh Wednesday, 04 September 2013 03:08 posted by Grnewh

    Mine started a few weeks ago with what I thought was a TIA. Later , thinking that i was heading for a stroke, I had this uncontrollable anxiety. Could push it back a bit but ended up in ER. they said. Uh huh, anxiety gave ma a large shot of and then little pills of atavan.....

    It'll go away for a day or three and lull me into complacency....then it hits again with new symptoms....this time unbearable back n neck pain ( I do have some spinal problems). I could only stop it by lying flat. Then, I thought.....hey, I'll bet..... I goofled the Interwebs..... anxiety does masquerade this way. Sneaky bastard.... Breathe ...mantra.... L'theanine and finally one o them little I'm angry at it and writing this....kill that mother loving (edited myself that time) anxiety....I will I will I will.......

  • Comment Link kumar gireesh Thursday, 22 August 2013 07:51 posted by kumar gireesh

    Its glad u are seeking help .. u are headed the right direction... be bold and fight it good luck

  • Comment Link peacejude Monday, 29 July 2013 02:14 posted by peacejude

    I just wanted to say I'm new to the site and your blog was one of first I read . we have similar symptoms with be nausea. I too took a pregnancy test Friday. Its comforting to know we are not alone. Good luck with therapy I wish you the best!

  • Comment Link smaxwell Friday, 28 June 2013 12:05 posted by smaxwell

    It went very well, even after the 1st meeting, I feel much better. She led me to realize that I live in the future and that causes anxiety because it's unknown. She will be teaching me how to live in the present soon and I'm looking forward to success with her and getting off medication.

  • Comment Link Melly Sunday, 23 June 2013 18:24 posted by Melly

    Good luck with your therapy!

  • Comment Link Ryche AndRoll Wednesday, 12 June 2013 18:59 posted by Ryche AndRoll

    Hope the therapy appointment went well! Anxiety can mess with every system in your body, so it is very tricky.. one of my tricks is keeping the mind distracted... as long as I have something to focus on, the other issues that go along with it either vanish or at least recede into the background.

    I agree about medication 1,000%... half the time the side effects are worse than the cure, and with anxiety, that is saying something... Hope the therapy will teach you some good coping techniques :) Wish ya the best!

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