My name is Rob and I feel like I am losing the battle with my anxiety and panic attacks. I have had social anxiety disorder and panic attacks for the last 30 years and have been able to maintain a close to normal life style. Over the last five years though it has been an exhasting battle that has taken it's toll on me. I was in an accident and crippled my left ankle making it very difficult to walk and limits my mobility to a few blocks.
Because of my anxiety and panic it makes it impossible to rely on plublic transit. Over the last two years my condition has become so bad I had to be admitted to a hostpital for hypertension and panic attacks twice. The second time I lost partial vision in my right eye and has never returned. Now when I have a panic attack this is the first thing I worry about losing sight in my other eye. A month later I was back in hospital with a heart attack.
It was only a few years ago I was still working out every day and had an active life style. Now I am a borderline agoraphobic and only leave my place for maybe thirty minutes a day and some days I never step outside. This only adds to my condition, it's like a snow ball rolling down hill and it just gets faster, bigger and spinning out of control. This is why I joined Anxiety Social Net, this is my last resort of some kind of preventive action and daily maintance for my anxiety and panic.
I tried to go for therapy but my anxiety would become so bad just from being in the waiting room I was never able to make it thriugh the door; Some time it will take me two or three tries just to get my groceries and it always happens that I get a panic attack waiting in the check out line. I have become a prisoner of my anxiety and feel like I am being sucked into a black hole.
I hope by sharing my situation and hearing other peoples stories it will help me fight back against my anxiety and panic.
