Dear social anxiety,
We go back a long way. I remember the first time I met you. It was the time when I had been humiliated in front of many people I knew. Ever since then, nothing has been the same.
You feel like a storm, constantly circling above my head, my everything. You rush into my body, occupying every space there is. Tornados roar inside of my stomach, everything shakes. Every time I have a new social event to go to, I feel as if I am being struck by a lighting rod, paralysed, shaking. Sometimes this happens for no reason. I can not escape, and if I tried, you always find a way to come back. You constantly tell me how I am going to humiliate myself, just for being who I am.
I know that you will be here. I understand that. I know that it will not be easy to get rid of you, if I can get rid of you at all. But I know one thing, I can control you.
For people who may be experience the same thing as I am, please know that you are not alone, and there is always a light, even in the darkest, scariest of times. :)