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Monday, 06 June 2016 04:10

Am I The Only One?


This question, and many others, have plagued me for quite some time. Yet, I cant help but think to myself maybe (just maybe) I'm not the only one? 

I know I'm not the only one who suffers from a mental illness, or a disorder. While this is true, I cannot help but wonder is there anyone else out there who isolates themselves from others, or keeps people at a distance in attempt to save them from having to deal with your issues? 

Or, do things like Stays Single, Keeping Family and Friends at a Distance, Avoids public places and holiday events from being petrified to be around anyone in the fear of being judged or stigmatized, along with being consumed with fear of being triggered, frustrated, or irritated? Which only throws you into (what seems like) an endless downward spiral of uncontrollable thoughts and emotions where there seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel. Which can last from hours on end, if not a couple of days. 

Yet, at the same time, wanting SO BAD for someone to talk to, or a friend to turn to, who will accept you, be you're friend through thick and thin? 

When, In fact, all you can find is the saddening comfort of solitude and the deafening quiet of the four walls you call home? Or, the awkward silence from those who say they are your friend when you turn to them for help. Or worse, them avoiding you like you were the plague?


While most of this happens in my own life. I can't even begin to put into words how terribly lonely it all can be. As I have spent an obscene amount of time isolated and alone. 

I often feel as if I'm trapped in a self made solitary confinement with no door on either wall. And the messed up part of it all is? I do this all to myself. 

Issues such as bipolar/ ptsd can indeed be difficult to handle for others who don't know, or for that matter don't want to know about them. Yet, it would simply be a breath of fresh air to actually have a friend to open up and communicate with. Someone who not only is nonjudgmental and accepting, but also is able to see past the mental illness and see a person, not just the illness/ disorder itself. 

Yet, day in and day out, “the mask” is put on. For no one see's the depressed lonely person in front of them. They simply see the mask. While the face hidden behind the facade weeps and craves for genuine human interaction.

Was just curious if anyone else out there goes through the same thing or am I the only one?

As I ask that question, many more bombard me as I bring this to a close. ..... Is there really anything wrong with me? Is it really what some of my old friends (who are no longer my friend, mind you) said? That it's all in my head. Am I making it all up or making excuses? I mean, I've known for a long time, after being hit by a vehicle at age 7 (and dying in the process), that I was different from others around me. Yet, if there is nothing wrong with me, why do I stay so isolated, so secluded away from society? Why can't I walk past my front door and go to the store to get food and supplies? Or yet, have a relationship or keep friends? 

So many questions, I know. Yet, I can't help but sit here and wonder. Am I making myself out to be worse then it is? Which is why I'm here writing this now, wondering, is there anyone else out there that goes through the same things? Or is it all a figment of my imaginations run rampant in my head? I'm sitting here driving myself crazy, stressing, day in and day out wondering all this.


Published in Anxiety Articles
Tuesday, 30 July 2013 21:58

A cliche and stigma

I generally hate cliches; they're usually not deep enough, but today I'm going to use one. In fact, I think we all grew up with it: 

   "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it all." 

 I think we all wish that everyone would follow that. Unfortunately, they don't. We've probably all run across hurtful things on the Internet, about depression, anxiety, or maybe even insults directed towards us. People make alot of assumptions and stereotypes, as well as "jokes."

I'm not one to believe that words don't hurt; they do! If you're like me, you may think about what someone said or wrote, for hours or days afterwards. But these are a couple of things that help me: 

1. The person doesn't know me, or my situation.

2.  The person has probably never been in my shoes; if they had been, chances are, they would be treating me with more respect. I've found that the people who've been in your shoes before are generally more understanding and reassuring.

Really, anxiety can happen to anyone. Around 40 million adults in the United States struggle with anxiety. We're not inferior. As the saying goes, "When people look down on you, it usually means that you are above them." 

Published in Diary
Sunday, 03 February 2013 04:01

Bipolar Bandit's Story


Hi! My name is Michelle Hughes, otherwise known as "Bipolar Bandit".  I run a Facebook page, a Pinterest board that is a great resource for most mental illnesses, a Twitter page, and I blog.  I have been advocating for people with mental illnesses for about 20 years. I recently started an Advocacy Group on Facebook.  

I am looking forward to sharing my diary here on Anxiety Social Net.  Since I already have been blogging, I suggest that you check my blog to find out more about what I stand for and how I have been advocating, and more about who I am.

My newest project is to spread the news about a petition that I think makes a lot of sense. We, as advocates, have so many ideas of what needs to change and even have solutions of how they can change. The first obstacle is to get people with influence (media, politicians, actors, musicians, athletes, etc) to hear us.  I think this petition will get that started.

I am asking that each state come up with a plan for Mental Illness Awareness Week(MIAW).  This will not cost too much money, if any and I believe it is something that both Democrats and Republicans can agree on.  I hope you take a few moments to read the petition, sign it, and share it with others.  We need to get our voice heard! If the NFL can dedicate a whole month to Breast Cancer Awareness, then I think that an organization like that and others can use one week to raise awareness, educate, and help to erase the stigma of mental illness.  The petition is called Mental Illness Awareness Week Being Observed in 2013 and everything is explained in the petition. Although, this is just for Americans, I am also currently planning a petition for other countries including the US to acknowledge World Mental Health Day too.

I hope to be using this diary on a regular basis.  If you want to know more about me, please read my story.  


Thanks Anxiety Social Net for allowing me to share this information!










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