Been having intrusive thoughts for the past 3 weeks about hurting my family. I've tried everything and nothing seems to work. I am desperate because they have never lasted this long and I don't want to feel this way.
I think it's because we don't actually know what to say to something like this, as we aren't professionals.
And for me, personally, you saying these feelings don't usually last this long and whatnot - that tells me that it's worse than it's been before, therefore it could become even worse, and you could actually act on the thoughts. When someone's safety is at stake - you need to see someone. Even if it isn't your own therapist...there has to be someone "on call" to sub in for him/her, or an urgent crisis centre or something.
I'm sorry you don't think we're being supportive, but again I agree with Asho. I really don't know what to say because I've never experienced it and I don't understand it whatsoever, and I just can't give advice about something I don't understand. So, sorry if "get help" isn't what you wanted to hear but that's the best we can do. You need support way beyond what anyone on here can say and I think it's urgent you do that, because not getting help is putting you and your family's safety in jeopardy.