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Does your GAD ever make you feel Overwhelmed/Suicidal?

TBH, I have hit rock bottom. In one week's time, my Husband kicked me out, I totaled my car (which I'd planned on sleeping in) and lost my job. The husband has "kindly" agreed to let me sleep on my couch until I find a job, get a car and a place to live. My clothes are hanging in the pantry. He speaks to me only by Facebook messenger. Every day he adds more stuff to the pile of things I'm taking with me. He is making it very obvious he doesn't want me here and is doing a great job of making me feel like crap. I'm literally on the edge. It's so overwhelming. I need a job to get a car, I need a car to get to work, I need to work to get a place to live, and all of this requires money I don't have. It's getting to the point where I can barely keep my thoughts together. I'm flighty and nervous and can't sleep. When I do sleep I have nightmares. I don't know how much longer I can hang on. I realize I "should" be grateful my husband is letting me stay here, but it's hard when he makes me feel like dirt. I feel so isolated, alone. I just want someone to pretend to care about me. My family is not very close. However, I do have one sister who I am rather close to, and her only advice it to "Give it to God". I hate that phrase. My Mom suffered for 7 years from cancer and every time it got really bad, she would say she was giving it to God as "redemptive suffering". She didn't deserve to suffer so much. Why would I believe in a spiritual body that is so cruel to the people he supposedly created and loves.

I don't know. My mind is such a mess right now. Obviously I don't have insurance or I would be at a Dr's office or Hospital right now - which wouldn't help the job/car/place to live situation, so here I am feeling stuck and desperate. Any suggestions?
Category: G.A.D 6 months ago
Superanxietygirl
Asked 6 months ago

I distract my mind also by doing some things I like: writing, photography, graphic design. I make things in the house, I go out to friends making them small surprises, I call someone, I do things in the house rearange, cleaning, cooking. browsing the internet. I personally like to watch movies and Ted talks about the things I am interested in. The idea is to distract your mind and to find a reason...say no to negative thoughts
justme
Answered 6 months ago
justme

I'm so sorry, girl. This sounds awful. Do you have any other friends or family who might let you stay with them for a bit? You might be able to get a storage unit for your things while you look for a new job and a new place. Don't hesitate filing for Unemployment benefits, too - A lot of times they deny every claim the first time and then you're approved when you appeal! But do it as soon as possible, because they won't back-pay you for time before your file date! Plus the UI office can usually help with the job search. You can also see if there are any local resources available to you to help with finding a new place to live and that sort of thing. If you aren't sure where to look, Adult and Family Services is usually a good start, or you can try Googling for things in your city. I've been in a similar spot, and as hard as it is, you'll get through it!! :)
ericaaa
Answered 6 months ago
ericaaa

I know maybe that answer is not good enough, but I can say God saved me, it helps me making the right decisions. Pray for finding the right answers and just leave all the struggle on God and you make what you can for now. Everything takes time, rely on time going by.
justme
Answered 6 months ago
justme

Also Erica has a good point, just don't lose your faith, things will get better
justme
Answered 6 months ago
justme

yes, I do have suicidal thoughts, but I try not to give it so much attention. I look for others who share the same feelings as me, here on asn, in books, on internet and on God
justme
Answered 6 months ago
justme

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