well its been about 3 months since my very first panic attack and my introduction into the world of anxiety. i want to go back but it seems to be hard. i recovered twice in the past 2 months or at least i thought i was recovering. the first time i thought it was over, i was so happy to be myself again and then things start to get bad again. hand numbness and tingling, i felt so disappointed in myself as if i let myself down. the anxiety came back but this time i was scared of having a disease. every little head pain worried me, every tingle, every numb sensation. my face, my arms, my hands and feet you name it. although ive seemed to get over the feeling of 'The fear of fear" (i think) i now have a new foe i have to combat against, its health anxiety. i didnt feel this way the 1st month and a half of having anxiety. i was just scared something with set off a panic attack, i hated the feeling i had in the pit of my stomach. now im worried im sick, mentally ill, tumors, multiple sclerosis, bell's palsy. yea ive been looking up way too much online and maybe i should stop. i guess my online research has evolved as well. from anxiety help to 'whats this a symptom of, whats that a symptom of?" and the many things that come up are almost overwhelming. i hope i really am okay, i hope i can get past this feeling too and even more so i hope the fear stays away.