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I am 15, my name is Amy. I have depression, I know that, but I think I have social anxiety too. 

I contemplate suicide at least 4/5 times a day, but I won't do anything about it. 

I don't even know what to write, I just want it to end, but at the same time I don't want my depression to leave me. It's the only thing there for me really.

I self harm, not properly cutting, sometimes not even breaking the skin, but it's what makes me feel again. 

For some reason I feel like my body and I are seperate things. I hate my body, it's not who I am, what I want, what I need, it's like I am stuck in it.

So even when I hurt it, cut it, bruise it, starve it, it can't leave me. It can never leave me. And that's really comforting. 

When I am around lots of people, I can just retreat back into my body, let it deal with people, but the real me never has to be shown at all. 

I guess I am just really lonely most of the time. I have no real friends, my family know nothing about me really. All I need is a proper hug, from someone who actually wants to hug me. 

But I am scared of hugs. I'm scared of any physical contact. 

I just need a hug. 

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