I have discovered recently that I suffer from avoidant personality disorder. This is after talking to my psych and looking up the disorder it fits me exactly. I fear criticism from others to point that I have to have a low paying job that deals with little social interaction with others. I constantly feel inadequate of others and have low self value. This is something Charlie Brown from the peanuts has witch is why I always found him relateable. He had a crush on the (little red hair girl) everyday he would want to talk to her more then anything. He coundnt though because he always would wind up saying why would she want to talk to me because of his low self esteem. I had the same situation happen to me I had a crush on a girl at work but whenever I want to talk to her I just cant because I feel like I would be wasteing her time because I zero confidence in myself. I feel very hopeless the description fits me perfectly few friends and less likely to ever marry or even date for that matter. I feel like social anxiety is hard enough but haveing no confidence in myself is making me lonely each day to the point im getting tired with life.