I have not been here for quite some time.
I still have my ups and downs. I stopped medication in summer 2016, and it worked, but it is still a constant struggle. I have the feeling that my ups and downs follow a certain routine over a years period.
It gets worse in spring, builds up till June and July and then slowly eases during the second half of the year. Without medication the struggle feels more intense, and I am not sure, if it will work in the long run. My therapist is very relaxed about this. So, I try not to be too concerned either. One thing is for sure: Panic Attacks have their own momentum.